The gay on gay hatred or the gay on gay discrimination is what I find so puzzling. When other queer people say, “If you were really transsexual…” — because I lived as a girl for three years and people ask, “Was that all an act?” That’s the biggest thing that I get disgusted by. It’s like, “Oh, really? That was all an act? I would go through all that trouble for three years — using women’s bathrooms, problems in airports?” No. I wouldn’t. People can’t understand that someone can have both sides of themselves and switch back and forth. And a lot of transsexual people have gotten really mad at me and said, “You’re really misrepresenting us as a community because you’re not sticking with the ‘girl look.’” I’m representing myself. I never claimed to be the spokesperson for anything other than myself. I just so happen to be gay or trans or gay and trans or whatever. I don’t know. I’m just content with myself and I think that makes people discontented.
I thought the whole point of being transgender was being what you feel on the inside. For me, I wonder why do you have to just feel like a woman trapped in a man’s body? Or vice versa? Why can’t you identify with both genders and tap into those without being accused of dressing up as a girl for attention? I’m fulfilling whatever vibe I want to go with at that time. I try to block out people’s voices in my head and just go with how I feel.